One more thing…

There’s that inner apple fanboy coming out again…

Forgot to mention a non-related thing mark 2:

Downloaded Expression Studio 2 the other day (as part of Microsoft’s support a student scheme, bless ‘em) and have been totally addicted to switching it on (well, the Design part of it anyway) and playing if I get any free time, generally between 10 and half 11 most nights, much to the grumpiness of my wife.

Nearly a week in and it’s a mixed review so far. Expression, for anyone who knows me, is BY FAR my favourite art software with Photoshop coming in second place. Pixelmator is nearly there and Blender, Flash, Fireworks and others all get an airing occasionally. Expression is the only one I play with rather than work in though. Love it to pieces…

Currently I’m in the ‘learning new features, frustrated with changes’ zone and also the slightly sluggish working in virtual mode - it’s currently being used on a lowish end macbook using Parallels 3 as a bridge. However there are some BIG changes that are winding me up a wall.

For a start I was surprised by how much I had come to use soft fills and fringes to give sometimes very subtle effects. They’re not there anymore. Worse still is the exclusion of effect lines! Shocking.

These images have some of the taken out options in. No idea how I’d replicate some of the effects in there without:

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((the last one is called faces because every time I look at it I just end up looking at the faces that come out of the lines)).

Apart from that the new effect filters are lovely and I’m aiming to be working with them a lot. Here’s the first doodle done, playing with the new options.

creature house microsoft expression

Frustratingly the colour blend modes don’t seem to work and I’ve got no idea whether that’s the build I have or what… Hoping to get some customer support although, sadly, their forum is filled with people saying the same sort of thing.

Regardless Expression remains my favo piece of art software… I’m just not sure which version of it it is just yet… Or whether I’ll be using both Expression 3.3 (old) and Design Studio 2 (new). Ironically both were free downloads from Microsoft and that’s something that I think the company are well deserving of thanks for over and above the slating they get for many things.

But I still want my effects lines back :(

Calm before storm

ooooh boy life eh? Good and bad all mixed in a blender and given a good shake up.

Couple of bits:

1: As a brief addition to the Wall-E story (see previous post) son boy made me smile the other day with something that was so perfectly timed he couldn’t have planned it better if he’d tried.

We’re trying to clamp down on the licking of bowls after a meal and the using of cutlery instead of fingers. It’s slow progress but the other day we were confronted with something that left us laughing:

Son boy: “Licking plates is full of contentment!”
Us: shocked and surprised. “Who says that on the tv?” (our question to many things it seems…)
SB: “LIttle one! Woo woo”
Us: “mo?” (the cleaner robot from Wall E).
SB: “Yes!”

Brief pause as you can hear gears working in our brains. Then we worked out he meant ‘foreign contaminant.’ And had misheard it in such a suitable manner! Small windows open. Ironically Mo seems to be the favourite character in the house at the moment although me, personally, I like Eve the most :) Must be the inner Apple fanboy in me showing its colours (or lack of them but smooth, smooth curves.)

2: open exhibition at the Boileroom between 4 and 6 on monday 22nd with my art students. If you want to pop along give me a shout.

3: hmmm think that’s it. Trying to get some Messenger promotion done but this is so totally not the time of year to do it and people that do talk to me tend to be doing so with one eye on a list of other things to do :(

4: As a signifier of how busy I am (two assignments for the teacher training due in on the same day - thanks guys) I had an Xbox 360 arcade to replace the one that stopped working for my birthday a week and a bit ago… Yet to get it out of the box. Hope it works :)

Quiet times…

Well, not so much actually… Have been sick as a sickpig for two weeks with a flu bug that’s doing the rounds… And then I went straight into a birthday I barely had the energy for and then it’s now :)

So where we at? Spent the afternoon doing planning for next years teAching and very excited to be starting that soon, just coming up to the end of year exhibition which should be exciting. Have drawn most of my Christmas cards too which is a first.

Lovely comments coming in concerning Messenger which is also lovely and, while I was ill I did manage to update my webpage at www.kercal.co.uk so have a mooch there if u’r interested.

Hmmm what else? I did find out this week that one project I was working on has been cancelled which is sad and I felt a little low for a couple of days. Shall bounce back i’m sure tho and it gives me the chance to try and breath a little easier I guess… But still, very dissapointing.

Apart from that? Hmm well nothing springs to mind off hand so shall sign off (well, I’m also installing a cool piece of software - expression studio - and it’s nearly done :) )

Toodles :)

Christmas preview…

Every year I draw my own Christmas cards to give to people and every year it’s a bit tight with me finishing the job, more often than not, on Christmas Eve…

This year my fascination, computer art wise, has been with computer abstracts and this is a small preview of where the cards are likely to be going this year. I’ll still be doing the Christmas tree and the Fourth Wise Man one as normal. EVerything else will have ‘this sort of thing’ in and around. They all will if I can think of some way to shoehorn them in somehow :)

Preview of Christmas Cards 08

How’s that for Photoshop wagging the dog…. :)

Messenger quote…

Trying to manage a million things at once at the moment. Changes in work coming soon - don’t want to pre-empt the meetings I’ve had in the past week for friends who log on - and Sylver, Exile and many other things being worked on, not quite as we speak but in the same sort of quarter at least.

Messenger, published by the lovely people at DLT, has had a couple of reviews which I’m still trying to work out what to do with. The problem is that I’ve totally missed the boat with Christmas in mind so now have to start thinking in a logical manner for… what.. January? Easter? Hmmm… I try my best, is all I can say…

Anyhow: quoteses:

Tre Sheppard, lead singer and guitar amazingness from the awesome band Onehundredhours:
“I’ve liked Paul since I met him. This new book “Messenger” is a little like Paul actually… it’s quirky, engaging, creative and a seemingly quick read… of course, until you dive in and find wonderful depth, truth and a keen eye on the human condition and the need for grace. Count me in as a fan :)”

Ian from Youthblog.org said:
As a medium this is fascinating. Given that tween guys are renowned non readers, I can see the attraction of exploring different forms of visual type. … actually it was a bit like watching a Shakespeare play, i.e at first the language is confusing and annoying but you quickly adapt and then virtually don’t notice.

I think the book is fun, a great experiment and well rendered (and) the teenage humour and angst came across extremely well.

((and you can read the review in full here)).

And the wonderful Phil Groom from the London School of Theology books and recsources dept said:
Read it, loved it: ace.
((and has promised a longer review when he’s got the time)).

Also; this one came in and I don’t know if I’m allowed to associate it just yet. But it amused me so here goes:

It’s the dictionary definition of cool, I felt hip just reading it ;o)

More, I hope, to come. But that’ll do for a start and I’m chuffed with the comments so far. Let me know if you’ve read Messenger and, if so, what you thought about it.

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Wall-E is autistic.

OK the title gave away the subject: no point doing the slow dance into the bombshell, there it is.

Starting with a couple of caveats:

1: I don’t mean the comment as either insulting or derogatory. I also don’t really mean it as a flamegate: the opening to a series of arguments over a subject whether I believe in the truth of it or not. In the simplest reading of the words that’s what I mean…

2: I am a total fanboy when it comes to Pixar films. I’ve got the majority of the DVD’s, a couple of the toys and bubble baths and so on and so forth. Again, this is not aimed as being a hidden argument or criticism. The story of Wall-E is touching and beautifully rendered (in both senses of the word) so, again, no criticism implied.

3: My son is on the autistic spectrum, high in some areas, low in others. He requires and receives special education and… well… You can possibly guess the rest.

Wall-E was a phenomenal film. I loved it from start to finish, as I knew I would, and, as soon as the film was finished, both of my children asked for the DVD, innocently unaware that I would have bought it anyway. During a family holiday we had all taken an afternoon out to see Wall-E on the ‘big TV’ as it’s called in our world and we all came out with big smiles and, for both my wife and I, a certain thoughtfulness. My main question was whether the majority of the audience knew that an unlikely hero had made it onto the screen in more ways than one and just how remarkable the hero was.

A short while later we returned home from holiday - these things a fraught experience at times because a change of routine - while welcome for some people - is a huge burden on autists. We struggle on because it’s good to try and break some routines and my daughter needs things to feel normal, sometimes, even though our lives are often far removed from that particular mirage. Hence a holiday, despite the fact that we know three of the ten or so days will be a minefield and that it gives complete strangers the chance to look at us and judge us as bad parents.

One of the first things I did when the list of needs had been addressed was to do a search for reviews of the film. I assumed that someone would be asking the same questions that I was: how had such a unique characteristic been captured so beautifully? Had anyone realised the honesty of autism that the film portrayed in such a positive way? The lack of any answers, or more to the point any similar questions, surprised me. 

Caveat 4: in my experience I find that it’s fairly normal for parents of autistic children to project the normalities and consequences of autism onto any or all seemingly normal facets of life. Autism was, at one point, referred to as ‘extreme maleness’ and there’s a truth to that still. Many people who I know and love can be mildly autistic in some of their habits and oddities, I am too, in ways. None of us like a routine broken, many of us misunderstand certain social understandings when they are first introduced to us, it’s easy to be so sure we’ve explained something adequately only to be faced with the reality of our self centered instructions, many people watch and re-watch a dvd or video to take comfort from the secure repetition and so on… The problem is that the word is such a weighted one it’s hard to use in a normal context: much like cancer the word autism has become a fashion label for fear delivering a parcel of well known misunderstandings far greater than any real information, unless you live in or around that world… It amazes me to find how many people have relatives, friends, relations who are on the spectrum yet misunderstand some of the more usual facets of it.

Which brings us to the evidence for the assertion: why do I believe Wall-E is autistic? 

In brief: Wall-E - and I mean the central character rather than the film in total - is echolalic: he speaks in echoed patterns rather than understood meaning. He is socially unaware - maintaining the routines and regimes of the world he has locked himself into rather than adapting to the social norms of others. He is kind an naive, innocent and childlike, despite being a much older model than his behaviour might point to.

There’s more: he plays and replays a favourite video, understanding the world through the context of an invented and unlived fantasy rather than the world which is in front of him… He collects strange objects which have no meaning other than to himself and he loves, cares for a categorises these objects with a fondness that goes over and above a simple collection. His best friend, until the arrival of EVE, is a non-verbal insect which Wall-E finds comfort in being around despite the lack of interaction on a verbal level… In fact it is the lack of trying to understand verbal commands that would make Wall-E so comfortable with the insect in the first place. If he were an autistic child.

He meets and befriends people, whether they want to be accepted or not, not aware of when they want to maintain a distance from his actions and simply conform to type. He accepts and responds to the help of a similarly unique bunch of characters - all shunned for not being able to stick to the accepted rules of the society they live in… There’s more, lots more, although as the DVD is out in a few short days I dare say there’ll be time to add to this and edit it. There’s also, I’m told, a short film which continues the story which I’m interested in catching.

I’m not, in any way, trying to diminish the achievement of Pixar in creating such a unique character as Wall-E. In fact the opposite is more the case. I found it an affirming message when confronted by so much that focuses on the negatives of autism. I found it reminded me of the things I love about my son, especially when that is a hard thing to keep sight of, and I found it something that I’m sure he and I will watch over and over and we will both enjoy for our own reasons. To have such a sympathetic character so beautifully portrayed is an incredible achievement - something which I feel Pixar should have been more praised for yet we seem to simply expect it of them.

The film is out on monday in the UK on DVD. I’ll be using it to teach others about the intricacies of the autistic mind when and if I need to do so as it puts so much across in the most subtle and heartfelt of ways. Mostly I’ll be watching it with my son, probably quite a few times, and enjoying the closeness that it brings us because, for the first time that we sit together and watch something it truly will be closer to our world than anything we’ve watched to date…

… and the irony is that it was a sci-fi film rendered on super-computers that managed to send the message home.

No…. Haven’t quite, but pressing on regardless…

OK, so this weeks been strange, quiet, hectic, manic etc. 

 

Most pressingly had the launch party for Messenger at the Boileroom. Was a mixed evening… The bands did brilliantly but the crowd was less than I’d hoped for. Ah well… Such is life. The day itself started with wifey and I going to the arts centre to pick some stuff up and finding some useful equipment in a skip outside. Wasn’t the best mood to put me in and affected the hectic set up for the day.

Ah well again.

Anyhow, sidetracked. Was going to say welcome back Team Wibsite, we missed you! Then I got totally sidetracked trying to work out how the heck to post to wordpress and it all got very strange.

But welcome back the wibsite. Missed you and hope that the change of site and hosts has gone smoothly despite the fact that I expect it was a heck of a lot of work from your side on behalf of others. Thanks muchos.

OK… Think I’ve got the hang of this…

Test 2….

New to the wordpress stuff.

So.. you save and then press publish?

The fourth Guildford Big Book draw…

First off thanks to the team: Alison, Nick, Fran, Stephen, Elizabeth, Simon, Rosie and of course Ju the spectacular wifey. Thanks to Jo and Pam and Glen and Manisha, Jane and Emma for all popping in and showing interest and thanks to everyone who took part…

SO! In the midst of the chaos and the busyness has been the Guildford Big Book Draw 4. For the past three years it’s been MAXI book time :) Everyone getting together to make the biggest book of the book festival by size and weight if nothing else. Last year, accidentally, we made a book that was so big that lifting it left me with a back so badly mangled I could hardly walk for a good few weeks.

So the vote was in: no more big books.

So this year we went small: the smallest books of the book festival; the ant’s library. The Dragon and his Princess, the mascots of the book draw, were chilling out to find that the ant’s library had been flooded. Their solution? To ask kids and families and anyone who wanted to join in at the Guildford Book Fest to come and make their own books, all so small that ants would like to read them too! So we did matchbox books and paperclip books and secret space books and shrink plastic books and loads more… And, although the six hours didn’t exactly fly by, it was a HUGE amount of fun. Haven’t done the head count from the registers yet but there’s a good two hundred people gone through the doors I’m a guessin’.

And it was just solidly good fun all the way through. I’ve done shrink plastic books for years now so, in that area, I was in my element and in fifteen years of doing ‘this sort of thing’ I’ve yet to meet a kid or adult who didn’t like have a go with shrinkies. Turning them into a book was just the final straw of coolness and, all told, I think every person that took part made at least one book to take home with them, some made four or five, each a different type, and went out smiling.

Good stuff… Also, just to reiterate the thanks thing: most of the names of the kids at the top are friends and kids who we’ve seen through youth group and, in some cases, leading the youth group at the church we all attend. They’ve been brilliant all the way through this, past book draws, Ready 4 Action days and much more and I’m both hugely grateful and very lucky to have such a brilliant team :)

That said it’s been a long day and wife, daughter and I are pretty exhausted… But hey, was well worth it.

Currently listening to: Duke Special: I never thought this day would come - total corker follow up to Songs from the Deep Forest. Currently playing: A prelude to sleeping like a rock. Currently working on: packing up Guildford Book Fest Big Draw stuff.